Life is a cookie.

dora the giant robot.

2006-12-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

check out my lil advertisement for a friend under RANDOMS. support yeah people? where's the love.

merry christmas motha fuckaaaass.
whoops a little late.

a little more depth. and closer to vulnerability.

2006-12-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

Fate or something better I could care less, just stay with me awhile.

when perfection becomes abnormal, deviant, unheard of or deemed inexistant. anomaly. and that nagging threat of paranoia from certain needs, wants and deprivation. love, the harder i fall the faster i run. dependance and vulnerability are prices i can't afford.

though catching the last train and endearing hugs after a hideously long day of work tempt me much.

" the vain pot " part six hundred and twenty four.

2006-12-06T14:19:00.000+08:00

and some chick thought i was gothic.. let me make this very clear.

firstly i don't lable myself.
secondly the goth genre does not consist of simply:
- eyeliner
- a uncontrollable liking for black
- body art and piercings
- a strong belief that one is a werewolf or some other creature of the night
- a refusal to step out during the day
- being "weird"

because although i admit to being all of the above, to call me gothic would be an insult to the true goths of this planet. so please do not mar the name of these lovely, wonderful people.

and i shall remain vain and unlabled.

the kind of morning that lasts all afternoon.

2006-11-27T12:57:00.000+08:00

they say a picture can say a thousand words. so here's a few thousand. and yes i am lazy to blog. =)

ciao.

breathe.

2006-11-18T11:35:00.000+08:00

heh heh heh. i finally dragged my lazy ass to update. well.. i'm still unemployed.. its fuck shit hard to get a job.. DAMMIT. oh well.......... still looking. i'm broke as well.. hence the need for a job.. lemme see, what else can i complain about.

hahahaha.
life's been a tad bit less of a biatch lately.. so i'm in a hella good mood. unfortunately my sentosa accomplice is still unconcious.. so i'm stuck at home until she's awake.

hmmmmmmmmmmmm..

.. yet with emptiness that left an echo and footprints.

2006-11-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

well.. everythings over.. exams.. and you know the rest.. maybe we're both just worn.. i honestly don't know.. i know perfectly well how i feel.. and i think i've tried to make it clear to you.. but its vulnerability that scalds.. and while i'm willing to take the risk cause duh.. i love ya to death.. i kinda just wish that you'd feel the same.. about everything like how we agreed on stuff last time.. its real lopsided now.. and you're pretty much gonna walk through that door like you always do.. just this time i'll probably not hear you walk back through it again.. this destructive vulnerability the second i accepted it as a part and parcel of love is exactly what i was avoiding to undergo again and again like before.. my phone's full of calls and texts.. but none of yours.. its almost enough to kill sweetheart.. i'm waiting till you feel more again.. cause i feel a little too much.

square one.

my eye twitches under stress. what can yours do?

2006-11-06T17:45:00.000+08:00

mmmmmmmmmm.. i have a darn emo blog huh.. well i'm a tad bit happier today. new radicals, flunking my papers and not caring really make me happy. okay.. that doesn't sound normal.

i mean.. i love maths?
hehe.

its only o levels.. no biggie. c'est la vie.

screweddddddd.

2006-11-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

dammit.. this exam thing is way too much stress for me to handle. i swear i didn't mean to do what i did.. i'm never this paranoid really. never have been. the stress from o's seems to fucking amplify it. fuck fuck fuck. though sorry doesn't change much i really am. so yeah.. i am sorry. i do love you so. i won't do it again. its not asif i enjoy being like this. i am trying to change. fuck. i know its lame.. but right now i'd do anything not to lose us. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

just how many times can i screw up in a week?
i lost count.

AGHHHHHSHJAHFLDHXFKASHKFDAHSKDHFSKUHFKUDSHSKUDH.
(angst on a keyboard)

i know you're upset.
i know i did you wrong.
i know you wanna make me pay for all the pain i've caused.

karma just bit me hard.

my love, never thought you'd make me break me.

2006-11-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds

I’m sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

i've been this low before.. i just didn't think it'd happen again when you're right next to me.
Lord give me strength to get through this in one piece and grant me whatever wisdom to fix what went wrong with us along the way.

if you don't know honey. honey then you don't.

2006-11-04T08:54:00.000+08:00

mmmmmmm.. okay, i know that my blog probably isn't of the most mature content.. but hey, i'm young and stupid, what else did ya expect. ;)

maths paper on monday.
can you say absolute DOOM?

d-o-o-m..

ah fuck. well i got an early wake up call from an early bird who apparently spent the past few hours on computer games. haha. much appreciated lovely.
so i'm gonna take advantage of the fact that this pig dragged her fat ass out of bed at 8.30 in the morning.. and STUDY.

woooo. check me out. i'm HARD WORKING.

a girl called Disaster.

2006-11-01T19:41:00.000+08:00

okay. two down.... many many many more to go. au secour !!
just finished my art and bio paper..
refraining from throwing myself out some random window.

still refraining...................

lit exam tomorrow. okay thats it.
*jumps out of random window.

ok i'm still here.
whattttt. i'm lonely. i'm allowed to be nerotically dumb. if thats a word.

sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh.
where are those annoying people when you need them.
hug me. hug me. hug me. hug me.

and this is just the start of the exams... can you imagine what'll happen when it hits full force?
i'm lonelyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. =(
and since this is my blog i shall whine somemore.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
emo i know. ;)

quack you.

2006-10-31T11:29:00.000+08:00

now bow down to your royal highness.
well oh gosh i'm not posh.

go on then, go on report me.
i'm english, try and deport me.

mmm.. i like weird brit-ish chicks who rap. their accent is way wicked. oh and brit-ish guys who go around saying "i'm smart as fuck" too.. but Christopher Dunnum is grace's cause i have a bf to adore anyway. =p

andddd.. i really should be studying right now.

quack those mother quacking quacks who came up with that quacked up idea of exams.

au secour !!!!!

yes, i do talk to myself.. so bah.

2006-10-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

i - am - so - fucking - going - to - crash - and - burn - during - my - o - fucking - levels..

i'm not ready.
my studies are being affected by "speedbumps" in "other areas of life".
i'm lazy.
i'm still slacking off. (which is why i have the goddamn time to rant on my blog)
i'm not that bright. (you'd probably have noticed that by now)

and i think that certain things that i've heard from one of the most loved and hated friend in my life may be true.
even from the mouth of a feministic strange girl who i've known for long enough.

cause,
sweetheart, you bring me highs that wear down fast.

worn hearts on torn sleeves.

2006-10-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

okay.. above we see Exhibit A, dora's failed attempt to be all "artsy fartsy" on the TPE overhead bridge. what can i say, at least i try.. art exam's on wednesday and i'm not even half way through my prep work. one word... shitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Achivements of the day (and night) :

1. Wrote a one liner for French compo o level exam. ( au secour !!!! )
2. Spilt tea down shirt at Grace's house. (and realised it was painfully hot after 5 seconds.. i'm slow. embrace it.)
3. WALKED from Grace's place back home.. no kidding. then again its just sengkang and punggol. but i'm d-o-r-a goddammit.. so its a bloody miricle i WALK anywhere. (i'm lazy, embrace that too.)

not bad huh..

oh and i threw black paint at my wall in a vicious rabid fit. kids don't try this at home. well, at least this house isn't rented.. i think. oh shit.

caffeinated highs.

2006-10-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

i am happy. happy happy happy.
high really. but still. i think i wanna marry you lovely. :)

oh and incase y'all haven't noticed.. pictures on my blog have only been appearing recently cause i got a new phone.. i am NOT bragging. i swear. anyway, i've been living off an antique for years and i think i deserve to be exposed to some new form of technology. which i by the way don't really know how to use.. but shh..

and i've just spontaneously decided to change my o level art topic. but who gives a fuck really.. would those British Cambridge people care? i don't think sooooooooooooo...

lalalalalalalaalalaa.
such great heights.

that may be all i need.

2006-10-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

see the cat? isn't she adorable? and ah fuck i lost her at the chalet thingy.. bah. at least i can safely blame aaron for wanting to go play pool so i couldn't possibly bring a kitten into the pool area.. mm.. hopefully she isn't cat meat somewhere. ARE YOU GUILTY NOW LOVE? hahaha.

anyway i had a blast.. and got a hell lot more tan.. and when i got back then i completely had a stressed-to-the-point-of-wanting-to-jump-out-of-the-nearest-window episode cause i realised my science o level practical was the next day.. mm.. its a definate flunk now anyway.

oh and i'm a paranoid, oversensitive, emotional nuclear bomb/train wreck.. hell, put the two togther and voila..

okay i forgot the point i was trying to make.
nevermind.

we've got the dreamer's disease.

2006-10-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

i'm an official holy ass.. attended church twice in a week.. and believe me, if you know me well enough its a god damn miracle if i wake up that early AND arrive on time (sorta)..

my hun should be proud of me. i'm following in his (many sizes than mine) footsteps. right right? no? okay then.. well i tried.

exams are gonna give me a tight slap in the face real soon.. so someone remind me whats the definition of the word "studying" again? i kinda forgot in the midst of being englufed by my little friend, Stupidity.

just don't be afraid to liveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
come around we'll kick your asses.

you got the music in you.

apathyandassholes.

2006-10-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

okay.. so i finally got my fairytale knight in shining armour on a white horse back again.. fine, screw the horse, he cycles on a bike.. and its not white. okay nevermind.. hehe.

BAM! scared yet?

you don't love me anymore. (fucking funny. god i could memorise this song)

2006-10-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

We've been together for so long
But now things are changing, oh I wonder what's wrong?
Seems you don't want me around
The passion is gone and the flame's died down

I guess I lost a little bit of self-esteem
That time that you made it with the whole hockey team
You used to think I was nice
Now you tell all your friends that I'm the Antichrist

Oh, why did you disconnect the brakes on my car?
That kind of thing is hard to ignore
Got a funny feeling you don't love me anymore

I knew that we were having problems when
You put those piranhas in my bathtub again
You're still the light of my life
Oh darling, I'm begging
Won't you put down that knife?

You know, I even think it's kinda cute the way
You poison my coffee just a little each day
I still remember the way that you laughed
When you pushed me down the elevator shaft

Oh, if you don't mind me asking, what's this poisonous cobra
Doing in my underwear drawer?
Sometimes I get to thinking you don't love me anymore

You slammed my face down on the barbecue grill
Now my scars are all healing, but my heart never will
You set my house on fire
You pulled out my chest hairs with an old pair of pliers

Oh, you think I'm ugly and you say I'm cheap
You shaved off my eyebrows while I was asleep
You drilled a hole in my head
Then you dumped me in a drainage ditch and left me for dead

Oh, you know this really isn't like you at all
You never acted this way before
Honey, something tells me you don't love me anymore
Oh no no
Got a funny feeling you don't love me anymore

heartaches hungover.

2006-10-11T08:33:00.000+08:00

so explain to me the sordid taste between my teeth.
cause sweetheart you're sweetalk's worn dry.

and i really should be at school right now if the substance that helped me fall asleep hadn't woke me up with a bomb to the head.
fine i deserved it.

c'est la vie, right?

bonjour le monde.
(good morning world.)

but your taste still lingers on my lips and i starve.

2006-10-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

i starve for you. cause this new diet's liquid, and dulling to the senses and its crude. but it will do.

dis.ap.point (ds-point) Pronunciation Key v. dis.ap.point.ed, dis.ap.point.ing, dis.ap.points v. tr.
-To fail to satisfy the hope, desire, or expectation of.
-To defeat the fulfillment of (hopes, plans, etc.); thwart; frustrate: to be disappointed in love.

to walk away..
and leave lonely shadows in your wake.

would you stop the looks of disdain long enough for me to ask why?

here's my bright idea, i'll just disappear.

2006-10-09T12:17:00.000+08:00

this is a blank space.

Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough for the Two of Us.

2006-10-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

mmmmmm.. this weekend i completely slacked off. ah well.. c'est la vie. oh and french o level orals was the usual disaster/train wreck.

woke up early.. correction. WOKEN up early to accompany Gracie to church.. dragged my holy-ass boyfriend along as well. hehe. much appreciated by me by the way love. turned out better than i expected.. pretty much without my best friend trying to kill my bf.. more like they ganged up against me with the same expressions and reactions. VERY SCARY. well i'm never doing that again. they're like twins or something. damn. hahaha. nah kiddin.. it was hella fun. plus aaron thinks that Pastor Prince is hot. well he is.. *drool. nah kiddin. its church. its church. its church.

okay i'm off to do drugs.

i mean study drugs.
in my bio book.
for my exam.
fuck.

to seasonal madness and substitutes for love.

2006-10-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

wouldyouliewithmeandjustforgettheworld

mm.. finally some time to update.. been stressing over that educational shit too much recently.. i think i may just be tip-toe-ing at the brink of sanity.. 3 words.. o levels are shit.. okay fine, i failed maths. BIG FUCKING DEAL. bah.

can one be afraid to feel? cause along with that kind of emotional stuff comes paranoia and a load of other shit that i often find too painful and troublesome to handle.. then again there's always a risk to take when it comes to love.. does that sound cliched or what.

damn. talk about emo-ism.

i fucking miss ya hun. *pouts pathetically.

xXoOxOooOxxX.

(small kiss, big kiss, small hug, big hug, small hug, big hug, small hug, small hug, big hug, small kiss, small kiss, big kiss)

yes i am a loser. i already know, no need for any reminders.

ink: an artistic excuse for being lazy.

2006-09-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

the last of my prelim exams ended today. art.. my prep work was incomplete so my final piece was half empty.. so to fill in the blanks i splashed ink on it and prayed the teacher would take it as artistic impulse. ah fuck i'm gonna fail.

i spent the first two hours of the morning sleeping on my classroom floor. we ran out of desks and chairs. cement isn't extremely comfortable so i woke up feeling like an old lady with arthritis.. after 3 hours of sleep apparently you're not as sober as a normal human being according to grace. and after 24 hours of NO sleep, you become the equivalent of a drunk person. how cool is that? i can save up on alcohol from now on.

"haha you're dead.. when your ship is going down i'll go out and paint the town. haha you're dead..."

man i so love green day. who the hell thinks up these kinda things?

hello you.

2006-09-14T15:48:00.000+08:00

4 hours of sleep.
dubious thoughts don't go well with exaustion.
a mangled mess of emotions deprive of normalacy.
(i left my maths paper blank. everyone else didn't..)
the sky's somber today.
but Dementia paid me a visit.
she left inextricable confusion to keep me company.

so bottom line is.. i'm too stoned to study.

"thoughts of you fluttering in and out of my head like a demented moth, drawn to whatever light might be left there." -- CRANK. Ellen Hopkins

de.men.tia (d-mnsh)
-Deterioration of intellectual faculties, such as memory, concentration, and judgment, resulting from an organic disease or a disorder of the brain. It is sometimes accompanied by emotional disturbance and personality changes.
-Madness; insanity. See Synonyms at insanity.

last words of a workaholic.

2006-09-13T11:08:00.000+08:00

woohoo. another exam gone by. also meaning another day less till the o's hit me smack hard in the face. ow its gonna hurt like hell. but for the time being.. i'm gonna allow myself to slack off a little and try to erase the image of my art teacher throttling me by the neck when i hand in my incomplete works of shit tomorrow.

how pleasant.

the resurrection of emo-ness.

2006-09-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

die lahhhhhhh. its like 12 am, i have maths and SS prelims tmr, i should be studying but i'm too busy whining about my sucky emo life to. talk about teenage angst.

well on the greener side of the grass....
at least i admit i'm angsty. right?

fuck it. i'm off to whine again.

"goodbye cruel world!"

*makes a melodramatic exit*

show me yo bootyhole.

2006-09-10T13:26:00.000+08:00

hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

i'm erratic from exaustion.. i had a fucking neurotic dream last night.. weirded me out. since when do fish grow multicoloured feathers? no? not normal? okay then.

ah fuck it. show me yo bootyhole! na na na na na na na naaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

apathy and assholes.

2006-09-09T10:13:00.000+08:00

i rock. i stone. i pebble. i just woke up so i'm spewing nonsense as usual. mm.. i apparently robbed celest's house of all o level notes and textbooks last night. her grand piano's next. *evil laugh. =)

okay.. enough crapping. lovely's coming over soon so i'm off to pick up my boxers and worksheets that cover pretty much every inch of my bedroom floor. anddddd.. noone's gonna wanna come over after they read this. "my mama says i live in a pig sty.. we ain't callin' it a house no more.."

alrighty i'm done.
ciaos.

i'm gonna starve.

2006-09-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

there is no decently unhealthy food in this god dammed house.

i miss you love. i bet you're snoring now. like a... butterfly. haha. randoms.

still starving. fooooooooooooooooooood.

somehow the human race annoys me.

2006-09-08T00:24:00.000+08:00

somehow the human race annoys me.

i am annoyed. and partially embarrassed to be a human being. ah well.. the world is crazy, join the club. as much as this may appear to be a load of demented bullshit........ in reality........... it is a load of demented bullshit. okay fine, i'm bored out of my fucking mind. literally. there are annoying and weird people feeding off the internet. they should be shot. dead.

repeat after me, "dora rocks."

"totallyyyyyyyyy."

the death of sobriety.

2006-09-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

amsterdam knocks out my brain.
amsterdam drives me insane.
falalala.

i'm sober, i swear to god. well besides being wasted on the staircase 'By the Bay', i have been. so any further loss of sanity is completely not my fault. i'm not studying as much as i should, but at least i mother fucking try. i'm not einstien for those who have yet to realise that. duh..

i miss you my stubborn ass. i'm deprived.

Monday's a whore. Tuesday's an overdose. and Wednesday's hangover.

2006-08-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

i. completely. stoned. through. out. the. whole. mother. fucking. day.. catch my drift? haha.. i'm still ever so slightly under the influence of emo-ism.. but it'll fade eventually.. then i'll be as happy as a tellytubby once again. as usual. again. great.

ah well.. i dragged my huge art piece and a ton of books home today cause i can no longer store my educational rubbish in class.

no more school for the rest of my life not counting my prelims and o's. wow.................. still can't believe it. i've been waiting for this day since i begun sec one, and now all i'm thinking is "shit i'm gonna fail my exams".. hehe. i'm a geek. can ya tell?

i've just finished typing out a formal letter to the principal of my school, groveling and begging for a testimonal upon my graduation. how degrading is that? here's a piece of the bullshit i just conjoured.

"After being a part of this school for all four years of my secondary school life, I do believe I have played a part in contribution to the school.......................... Though I have made mistakes when it comes to discipline in the past years, I have tried my best to make amendments for my past actions which I sincerely regret and seek forgiveness for................... Hence I sincerely hope to recieve a testiomonial from the school to increase my chances of being accepted into a polytechnic of my choice as i realize its importance."

am i good at lying or am i good at lying? (its a rhetorical question)

I SO TOTALLY ROCK AT THIS BULLSHIT.

obsessively overdosed.

2006-08-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

agh. my head's fucking spinning so i can't really type straight. anyway, today was kinda fucked up..
i attempted to NOT be late, failed, got caught for being late, got caught for uniform, had to face SATAN in the form of the OFFICE LADY, got caught for lying to SATAN, had to see principal. oh and i wrote about 3 lines for my french compo. and slept through the rest. and i have no money on me what-so-ever..

and to top it all off i went emo for a couple of hours cause of a certain argument, then overdosed and lost the ability to stand straight and did a load of stupid stuff i don't rmbr doing, including bawling and writing down some nerotic shit. my prince charming (not on a white horse, more like the SBS transit bus 3) came to my rescue. thanks love. sorry for being a nusiance.

alrighty. i'm not quite sane right now so i'll end here.

Food is the cure to all problems in on Earth.

2006-08-27T09:17:00.000+08:00

i may be a little hungry. heck i'm starving. but the fridge is so friggin far away (15m at least).. bloody hell.. i am SO not walking that far.. i'll wait till my hunger overtakes my laziness.... THEN i'll go. hehe.

my english prelim's are on monday. which is tmr.

oh right. hahahahhaha.

newly skinned.

2006-08-26T01:28:00.000+08:00

hahahhahaha. isn't my blog pretty?

haha. sorry was too bored. i needa get a life.
and cash. i'm fucking broke.

i'm like this close to running into a bank, screaming "YOUR MONEY OR YOUR LIFE" and then realising i'm not armed and hold no threat. Only then to be thrown out of the bank or arrested and sent to a mental institute.

this is my deranged mind. hug it. i mean embrace it.

nerotic-loser-ism.

2006-08-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

i've invented a new religion. follow me and be blessed by the nerotic God of losers!! woohoo.. i'm not occult i swear. hehe.

anyway, i've deleted at least half of my old archive thanks to CERTAIN kpo's that i know.. who enjoy laughing up my past.. cause i might have been a LITTLE emo at CERTAIN times. (bitches.)

i've completely embarressed myself in the attempt to speak french during my prelim oral exam.. haha.. it was SO bad. i was speaking english half of the time, and the examiner dude was shaking his head in absolute sorrow.

QUEL COUVE. (what a fag)

ahhhhh fuck it. much love.

- certain obsessions that may have to do with you and your lovely self.

i should be fucking studying. so remind me why i'm not.

2006-08-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

arithmetic. grapgical solution. similarity and congurency. similar figures. circles. angle properties, (n-2)180, 1, 4.1,4.2,5.1,5.2 in TYS..........

hahahahahhaaha. my ass.

sunburnt seashells.

2006-08-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

mm.. attended jane's bbq ystrday with my hun.. haha.. the sunset was gorgeous. and so was the food.. it was as fun as hell.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL. x)

ace of hearts.

2006-08-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

mm.. its a month n counting. which means o's is a month closer as well. dammit. my brain's still somewhere on holiday. hawaii, last time i checked.

anyway.. we're really good so far. call it what you want. i'd say its affectionate bliss. its hard to find a person who melts into you and under your skin in a split second. so what are the odds of that?

much love.
i miss ya.

ice cream and condoms.

2006-07-30T17:33:00.000+08:00

User Precaution: This blog contains total and utter random bullshit.
Take in moderate amounts.

ahahha. i'm fucking bored. and tired. so i think i'll go and sleep my life away. mm.. saw fireworks from the national stadium when i was at east coast with my bf yesterday.. its friggin nice lahs. haha.. i wanna stand outside the stadium just to see the fireworks on NDP. mwahahahahha. i'm gonna get arrested for doing something stupid on of these days. anyone can lend me cash for bail money?

*zz. unconscious. i'm sleeping, don't wake me up. EVER.

fuart. artck. FUCK ART.

2006-07-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

damn. my fingertips are sore from playing the guitar.. i gotta pratice more often, cause i apparantly suck.

ahh. i'm gonna flunk my art. turns out my senior is using the same style n technique as me.. and she's fucking good at it.. so when i hand up my piece, it'll be compared to hers. FUCK. not good.

anyway i attended my sec 4 farewell. basically me getting kicked out of cca cause i'm too old already or whatever. haha. i got hugs. oh and molested by vicky the horny dog. they made me stuff 8 marshmallows down my throat and say stupid lines like "chubby chubby cheese". damn. i almost drowned in the fucking sweets. ah well. i like food.

i miss you love.
cya tmr. x)

the fucking island is fucking enguled in fucking smoke.

2006-07-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhh. its everywhere!!! run people! run for your lives!

its the 7th month and the burning of paper and other objects is in fashion. dammit. my oxygen is being depleted.. *poof. there it goes. going going. gone.

*suffocates. witheres and dies.

sorry, i can't think straight. my brain's running on carbon dioxide.

the definition of the word "love".

2006-07-22T11:53:00.000+08:00

don't mind me. i'm bored out of my mind.

2006-07-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

as.phyx.i.a
as.phyx.i.at.ed, as.phyx.i.at.ing, as.phyx.i.ates

A condition in which an extreme decrease in the concentration of oxygen in the body accompanied by an increase in the concentration of carbon dioxide leads to loss of consciousness or death. Asphyxia can be induced by choking, drowning, electric shock, injury, or the inhalation of toxic gases.

dumbshit. i love this word. makes me sound smart cause its so fucking long.

johnny johnny johnny johnny. depp depp depp depp. (someone stop me)

2006-07-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO. i finally watched MY johnny depp movie!! oops.. i mean.. er.. i love my bf aaron. =).. (he spent the afternoon dragging me away from the life-sized posters of johnny.. gotta give him some credit. =x.)

nahs. joking.. anyway............. WOOHOOOOOO. fuck. i counted down for that fucking movie. and now i gotta count down for the sequel of the sequel.. NEXT YEAR. damn. and now i've got the flu as well as my dear.. and the fucking doctor has an attitude problem.. probably gave me the wrong medicine on purpose. mother fucker.

ahhhhhhh.
i miss you love. x)

starkravingmad. so shoot me.

2006-07-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

some freak in the next block is singing karaOK and he's making me wanna shoot myself in the head. god.. if you can't sing, why proclaim it to the world?

okay.. screw shooting myself, i'm gonna shoot that dumbshit who's singing instead.
its hurting my ears. ow..

johnny's movie came out yesterday. sneaks were day before. AND I STILL HAVN'T WATCHED IT. damn. there's something not quite right with the world. i have $4 in my posession.. do ya think the cinema'd give me a discount? *pouts.

anyway, spent my afternoon at the beach with the world's sexiest guy aka MY bf. hahahhahaha. sorry.. the fucking singing dissolved part of my sanity. ah well, he's adorable and i love him to bits.

just to let the world know. :)

karma has ugly-fied my legs.

2006-07-12T15:21:00.000+08:00

i must have done something bad to someone today.. cause i've managed to break my nail during art, and FALL ON THE FUCKING ROAD on my way home while i was talking to my bf on the phone. haha.. i sound like such a bimbo. but heck. it hurts like fuck.. as if the friction burns from blading wern't enough. now i have skinned knees too. dammit. that was so fucking embarressing. hehe.

*goes and hides her head in a paper bag.

JOHNNY DEPP MOVIE OUT IN EXACTLY 1 DAY = 24 HRS = 1440 MINUTES = 86400 SECONDS.

yay.

head over heels.

2006-07-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

my life just got a hell of a lot sweeter.

so much for maturity.

2006-07-09T08:36:00.000+08:00

ah well.. my hp is gone. my ezlink card was retained for vandalism by some fucked up bus inspector. my friendster acc seems to have been deleted by a VERY MATURE person.. i really don't see how much worse it can get? oh wait.. and i've been labled a "fucking bitch" cause i decided to kill off whatever was left of our relationship.. i mean seriously, jealousy and the whole dragging on thing would have destroyed us both in the end. move along.

i've fallen again and i think he's perfect. (ignoring the shirts)

and my johnny depp movie is coming out in exactly 4 FUCKING DAYS TIME.
woohooooooooo.

*procedes to dance around the house in her boxers.

Do Not Planter. (not so pretty pictures of me.)

2006-07-04T11:31:00.000+08:00

paris hilton wanna-be.

check out the thong in the background

i'm trying to make out with the air. shh. its a bad habit.

oh.. the sweet smell of insanity.

damn.. my hair isn't as long as hers.

mommy i wanna be a prositute too !!

fuck fund raising. i love my grace.

Gracey attacking me. agh.

stoning. hah.. i didn't even notice this was taken. i think i'm being stalked by a certain someone.

the life of a dork: sitting next to stupid signs and laughing hysterically.

It's Not A Side Effect Of The Cocaine, I Am Thinking It Must Be Love

wahahaha. saw this at HMV yesterday.. Johnny Depp is SO mine. mother fuckers.

to death with trunchbull.

2006-07-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

yeap.. well i went for the fucking music marathon thing. and i got dragged off the stage by my VP within 5 seconds of contact. Apparently my tank was revealing my bra straps (BIGGEST SIN IN THE WORLD) and i have too many piercings (SECOND BIGGEST SIN IN THE WORLD), and i was UNFIT to be performing.. fuck that bitch smack. i didn't even wanna perform in the first place, the only reason i showed up was cause of gracey. do i look like a dancing monkey for the school to raise funds? huh? mother fucker. that bitch got all up in my face and was like "girl, are you trying to play funny with me?".. SERIOUSLY, she's as hideously ugly as the character Roald Dahl invented.. Ms Trunchbull in matilda. do u really think anyone would wanna PLAY with her? mother fucking whore bitch smack.

GRR.

dumb shit.

2006-07-02T10:23:00.000+08:00

damn it was my turn to feel fucked up last night.. some dumb shit bitch thinks too much and now i've lost friends dear to me.. agh.. its completely irrational and does not concern me.. i fucking don't deserve to be dragged into this shit. ah well.. my "blog" helped me to vent.. haha.. n i woke up feeling a hell of a lot better.. lacking sleep, but feeling better. x)

*gone to consume breakfast.

i think i've managed to finally get myself happy again. cause of youuuuuuuu.. doin' that thing you doooooooo.. (fund raiser's today at millenia walk. 8pm.. damn.)

the pros and cons of breathing.

2006-07-01T12:36:00.000+08:00

mm.. fuck.. i really miss him.. his scent, warmth.. whatever.. it sucks.

well.. i was up trying to console certain people last night.. there was like a queue on my friggin hp of my friends who said "dora.. damn i can't sleep".. haha.. well, i couldn't sleep either in the end.. cause i'm a nice person and everyone's my best friend in the world. god.. i've been deprived of my sleep.... sigh. i was awake till like 4am.. and i woke up round 10 cause the fucking sun is too bright........ =(.. i'm a nice person. i'm a nice person. i'm a nice person.

DO I LOOK LIKE A FRIGGIN COUNCELLING HOT LINE AT 3 IN THE MORNING. HUH? DO I?

ok.. i'm a nice person. i'm a nice person. i'm a nice person.
i'm sleepless. don't judge me.

youuuuuuuuuuu.. doin that thing you dooooooo..

2006-06-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

god dammit. that song's been in my head since yesterday thanks to the friggin music marathon fund raising shit. ah well.. its catchy and i kinda like it...

cause i try and try to forget you girl
but its just so hard to doooo..
everytime you do that thing you dooooooooooo..

anyway.. i woke up at like 12 today.. then i slacked around till 4.. gracey called and asked me to blade, then to watch a movie, then to do art.. so we spent the next half an hour debating on which to do.. in the end we decided on blading at punggol park.

(for viewers information. I HAVE NOT FUCKING BLADED IN AT LEAST 2 YEARS)

so you can imagine me looking like a lush or drunkard. on wheels. not a pretty sight.. anyway, i realised why i stopped blading 2 years ago.. THEY FUCKING CUT INTO MY LEGS. so.. when i finally met grace i had 2 fucking blisters that stung cause of the sweat.. so we went to buy plasters.. but guess what, THEY DIDN'T FUCKING STICK TO MY LEG. anyway grace was busy screaming at me cause i don't really know how to blade for nuts.

so we ended up sitting next to the lake thingy.. whatever.. the big body of water in the park and listened to songs like "that thing you dooooooo.." and sang along. and danced. hehe.
n we were actually enjoying ourselves when some mother fucker comes up and starts kicking n throwing the dustbins into the lake. WHAT THE FUCK. so gracey got pissed and called the police.. who arrived like 15 mins later when he had gone.. turns out he's legally crazy.. like an official resident of Woodbridge. haha. oops.

yeah, then i went home.
great day huh.

dora for rent. hahahahahahaa.

2006-06-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

4th day of school.. and counting.. woke up at 720, obviously too late to bother to rush.. so i took my time and arrived exactly after assembly, hence avoiding any punishment hurtling my way. spent the whole day singing with my class to pratice for the fucking 90 hour music marathon. another lame excuse for my school to extract money from the public.. mother fuckers. yeap..

my classmate got suspended for being gay. no shit.. "i'm sorry, gay people are not allowed in school, so get the fuck out!"

hahahahahaa. oh well.. maybe if i hug gracey in front of my dm i'd be suspended too. *gasp. biggest sin of the century. blow me bitch. i deteste my dm. hell, i loathe her.

*gone off to ponder on other words to describe feelings towards dm.

i said i'd be fine. i lied.

2006-06-28T16:28:00.000+08:00

3rd day of school.. i managed to get through half of yesterday painlessly (more or less).. so today i blocked whatever emotion theatening to eat me alive out of my head.. but the empty feeling inside my chest refuses to fade.. so i'll fill it up with whatever i can pick up on the way.. i reckon it'll be full enough sooner or later for me to be a whole person again.

love lies in 3 places.

your tongue.

your head.

and lastly your penis or vagina.

hence.. it never really has to do anything with your heart does it?
its the sad truth. live with it.

when the marks i left across your neck fade, so will i.

2006-06-27T14:11:00.000+08:00

mm.. well.. 2nd day of sch.. geog n bio paper.. probably failed again cause i spent the whole of last night bawling my eyes out.. luckily i had my friends to talk to, or i'd have exploded as usual. yup.. then this morning i woke up late, ran out of my house smelling like toothpaste and looking like a panda.. and i think i scared the living hell out of the bus driver when i ran like a crazy person to catch the bus.. hehe. that was EMBARRESSING. but i'm too tired to feel anymore anyway.

i'll live. who needs anything else when you have food. yay.

i starve for you.

2006-06-26T16:52:00.000+08:00

mm.. today was the first day of school. and on the bus in the morning, i came to a realisation that everyone was studying their chem and lit notes.. except yours truely. and then, when i reached school.. i came to another realisation that my chem and lit mid-years were TODAY. yup. then i gave up and i slept through the exam and planned of ways to make myself lovable to you.

then i spent my afternoon with grace at my place trying to study.. only problem is that you're in my head. so i ate chocolate and ice cream and smacked myself whenever i thought of you. resulting in me spilling water and making a mess.

hence the conclusion: if my depression continues, i will end up FAT, BRUISED and STUPID.

therefore i am a pathetic loser who feeds off relationships and being loved, who is now currently starving off the lack of affection, and is about to fail her o levels and die of hunger.

love me goddammit.

(i am using the word 'love' without knowing how to define it. i swear i've felt it before though)

fall out boy - sending postcards from a plane crash.

2006-06-25T09:51:00.000+08:00

I am such a sucker
And I'm always the last to know
My insides are copper
I'd kill to make them gold

Conversation got me here: another night alone in the city
Make my bed the grave and shovel dirt under my sheets

Every friend we ever had in common
I will severe the tie with you

You can thank your lucky stars
Everything I wish for will never come true

When you go, I will forget everything about you
When you go, I will forget everything about you

I've seen sinking ships go down with more grace than you

Turn this up, I'll tune you out
Another night alone in the city

Fake it like you matter that's a lie we can both keep

Every friend we ever had in common
I will severe the tie with you

You can thank your lucky stars
Everything I wish for will never come true

When you go, I will forget everything about you
When you go, I will forget everything about you

my head is about to explode.

2006-06-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

i'm so full of it.. i really think i'm gonna self-combust or something. maybe its like you said, i'm thinking too much.. but i'm coming up with actual theories in my head.. that possibly can be scientifically proven. i really need someone to talk to.

today's new self-discoveries:

1. i am obsessively paranoid, jealous and posessive. (not good)

2. i am completely dependant on people to take care of me. very pathetic. (not good either)

3. i think i'm insanly in 'love' with someone who doesn't know how to react when i tell him that. (REALLY NOT GOOD. AND EXTREMELY EMBARRASSING)

4. loneliness is a disease that cannot be cured. only numbed for the time being. (well that sucks)

5. my best friend thinks i'm a narcissistic vain bitch and refuses to go out with me for a month.

6. i just realised i have little friends except my best friend.

7. i don't know how to define 'love'. but i have theories.

8. my tattoo has started to shed the first layer of skin n its itchy. (at least this is normal)

9. i'm currently hungry.

10. i have too many self-discoveries for one day.

11. i think too much. i should amputate my brain.

12. whoever i talk to in the next few hours will probably think i'm crazy and never talk to me ever again.

13. my ego hides my insecurities. which is probably why its so big. cause theres lots to hide.

14. i am a compulsive crier. meaning i cry in the middle of nowhere for no apparant reason. maybe i'm depressed.

i need professional help. or 'love'. whichever you can provide faster.

life.

2006-06-22T18:42:00.000+08:00

a piece of reality.
(click)

well.. i went to drop off something out side his door in the afternoon and was planning to leave him sleeping.. but it turned out he had already woken up.. yeap.. n i think now things are a lot better for us? we'll just see how it goes after awhile.. =)

its life i guess.

i'm not vulgar. i'm expressive. =)

2006-06-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

for lack of a better word.. or words.. LAST NIGHT WAS A LOAD OF BULL.

the second i'm barely over you, you HAVE to call and tell me all that bullshit i know would mean nothing to you in the morning.. seriously.. i have emotional limits.. which i have reached by the way.. i was so screwed up and depressed, i actually became ridiculously happy.. which is NOT NORMAL. don't act like you care that you've degraded me to some entertainment/whore/tv/slut bag. cause guess what.. YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME REMBEMBER? i can quote what u said if you want actual proof..

its funny how you can publicise my mistakes.. and yet time and again, refuse to show it that u tell me you love me, that you care.. to other people? how is that... okay to you?

i'll wait cause i still love u and i'm not ashamed of saying that on the world-wide net..
probably till u push me off the brink of sanity.
and this sums up everything inside my head. first thing in the fucking morning.

"are you entertained?!?!?!?!?!"

screw self-control. its the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE for god's sake !

2006-06-19T20:20:00.001+08:00

mm.. today i was awoken by a weird sms from an unknown source asking if i'd rather study at town, and stating "DO NOT REPLY TO THIS NUMBER" at the end.. so assuming it was grace, cause she always thinks that i would automatically realise it is her who sent the sms, i called her. and yeap, i was right, as usual. then after that, she called me back n blew me off (and made lousy excuses involving Sadam Hussein). THEN after that she called again n said she felt like a bad friend so she changed her plans just for me (aw how sweet. bloody biatch). THEN after that i fell asleep, woke up late, got constant screaming from my pissy mum (its the PMS) then arrived 40 mins late to a very very angry gracey. oh well.. i tried.

anyway.. though i had placed a restraining order on myself against buying more clothes......... well fuck that, there was a 50% discount and a really really hot tank.. so yea. and there was food.. which i adore by the way.. so gracey and i went home broke, bloated, and... with new clothes, fuck it, i can't think of anything with a 'b'.

well.. that was my day.. how was yours? (i don't really care. honestly.)

oh.. and by the way, you were constantly on my mind.

i used to waste time dreaming of being alive, now i waste it dreaming of you.

2006-06-17T15:45:00.000+08:00

agh.. the melodrama of it all. yucks.. hate being like this.
oh well..

i'm officially obsessed with peter wentz from fall out boy. hahahahhahaha. johnny depp too, but he's so last week.

he's so dork-ish it's actually sexy.
hahahahahhahahhaa.
i'm going crazy. i need help.

if you remember me, promise me tomorrow starts with you.

2006-06-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

okay.. let me stress once again on the fact that i hereby declare myself an offical femminist bitch. the reason because 99% of the male population have hearts in their penises. some wear sex on their sleeves, but the ones who don't.. they're pretty god dammed hard to spot. mother fucking animals. why wonder why there are gay people when the cause is standing right in front of you.. is the concience normal beings hold within themselves lacking when it comes to men? or did their hearts just drop too low below the belt. geez.. do they have to be so fucking charming and attractive?

whats wrong with the world?!?!?!??!?!?!?
(i do not have issues in case you're wondering.)

be a woman. shoot a man. =)

i'm hungry. feed me.

2006-06-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

hehe. just thought i'd piss her off further by displaying more of her face on the world-wide net. Aren't i the sweetest bestest fucking friend in the entire universe?

i'm so hungry. agh. i could eat a cow. or two.. hmm..

(gone to find two cows).

it's true, romance is dead. i shot it in the chest and then in the head.

2006-06-13T16:07:00.000+08:00

agh.. i'm rotting at home.. i needa get out.. but i'm too lazy to move.. hah, dilemma or what.
its funny how people change in the way they treat you.. especially in one of those Fuck and Drop cases.. mm.. what a male whore.

sketches and scratches.
i thought i knew what u were feeling..
i guess i mistook something for absolutely nothing.
wishing u'd just drown in the infidelity of that night.
i'd spit in your face if i didn't wanna kiss it..
your charm is fading, so start running for cover.
cause under all that, boy we both know.. the lonely loser's gonna show through.
i'm wrecked and hanging by a thread.
is this revenge for the last time i let you crash and burn?
you're not my karma.
i want you to stay, not play. its about time you learnt the difference.

-BUSY BEING BORED. BE BACK IN A SEC. =)

this loss of sleep over you and the tepid infidelity.

2006-06-12T14:56:00.000+08:00

mm.. i think i've finally passed my obsessively lonely and depressed faze.. with the help of shopping therapy and.. currently being broke.

i would like to divulge that i have come up with somewhat of a theory of the orgin of the phrase 'heavy hearted'. i think the person who came up with it was being quite literal. its like an empty space inside.. strangly one would think since it is empty, it would be therefore weightless. but guess what folks, its a fucking hollow feeling that eats away at your chest from the inside, makes you weak in the knees due to its weight causing your legs to just wanna give way so that at the end of the day, you're left crawling your way around on the god dammed floor.

lone.ly ( P ) adj. lone.li.er, lone.li.est
Without companions; lone.
Characterized by aloneness; solitary.
Unfrequented by people; desolate: a lonely crossroads.
Dejected by the awareness of being alone.
Producing such dejection: used in the sentance, "the loneliest fucking night of my life."

okay fine.. maybe i'm not over the faze. but i'll get there eventually. (i'm a teenager. can't help it)

LONLINESS IS A RAPIDLY SPREADING DIESEASE.
HEAL THE WORLD. HUG A STRANGER TODAY.

drink water. save beer.

2006-06-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

i have just discovered that the word 'adorable' contains my name.. awww.. i put it in red just to make it obvious in case y'all wondering.

a.dor.a.ble ( P ) adj.
Delightful, lovable, and charming: used in the sentance, "Dora is so fucking adorable. Seriously."
Worthy of adoration. (see? isn't that SO me?)

i adore the English language.
and i bought kinky red n black underwear stating "i like your boyfriend" on the rear. why? because gracie didn't think i'd dare. hehehe.

- just think of this and me as just a few of the many things, to lie around to clutter up your shelves...

lonelyyyyyyy.. i'm mr lonelyyyyyyyy.. (okay not really.. i lack penis.)

2006-06-08T17:35:00.000+08:00

i'm lonely. i'm lonely. i'm lonely. i'm lonely..

and to top that off, i just proved to myself that i am stupid and capable of being played.
does life really suck or what..

User Caution: Explodes when left alone.

2006-05-29T18:35:00.000+08:00

mmm.. Honest question, would u rather suffer by being alone or suffer by sticking with something that's more or less already dead?

i. am. a. people. person. okay.. sometimes maybe not.. but it depends on who you are n shit.. if ur a fun happy person then hell yea i'm sociable.. but if ur one of those ppl who annoy the fuck out of me then stay away cause i bite.. mmm.. ok, back to my point..

i. am. a. people. person.
seriously, i think i'd die if i had noone to talk to n blah blah.. isn't that pathetic? being a 'people person' sounds like such a good thing.. but guess what, ITS NOT! argh.. a 'people person' is someone who would literally become non-existent without the company of other human beings.. in other words, completely dependent on social life. who the fuck invented this man? i don't wanna be a fucking people person.. i wanna be a fucking loner, anti-social whore. yay. then at least i won't get lonely easily and therefore create opportunities to screw up my life.. (haha.. my god this sounds SOOO teenage angst. live with it! i am a fucking teenager so i can't help it).. anyway, i've forgotten what point i was trying to prove.. so... yep.

-end of message/bullshit.

ex.is.tent -adj.
Having life or being; existing. See Synonyms at real1.

dork
Slang. A stupid, inept, or foolish person: used in the sentance "Dora is a fucking dork."
Vulgar Slang. The penis. (hahahahahhahaa. bet y'all didn't know that)

Fall Out Boy - 7 Minutes In Heaven

2006-05-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds

I'm sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

The only thing worse than not knowing
Is you thinking that I don't know
I'm having another episode
I just need a stronger dose

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds

I'm sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone

Cause I don't do too well on my own.

flunked. again. as usual..

2006-05-16T16:04:00.000+08:00

ok.. i have definately FLUNKED my maths midyr paper.. (act surprised please).. again.. for the 137572409209820394 time.. hehe.

anyway halfway through the paper i kept zoning out.. then i fell asleep.. luckily my hp vibration woke me up but i forgot i was in the exam room so i almost stood up.. T.T.. i tend to forget where i am when i fall asleep.. haha.. ok.. basically.. I FAILED MY MATHS. failed. fail. failure.. failed-nes..

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. fuck the fucking fucked up education fucking system.

2006-05-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

the two happy little students. don't you love us? hehehehhehehee. joke. laugh people.

regarding DISTURBING social issues at fast food resteraunts.

2006-05-13T08:09:00.000+08:00

ok.. so one day two happy little students (grace and i) were walking along.. and they decided to eat at KFC.. unfortunately, the smarter taller prettier happy little student (me) wanted to eat at yoshi.. so she ta bao-ed it into KFC.. while they were eating peacefully, a sadistically deranged AH MA jumped out of nowhere and chased them outside.. the two happy little students became two very pissed off little students, and decided to go on strike outside KFC.. so they sat right outside and continued eating while waving at whoever gave them funny looks.

the end.

make the world a better place, slaughter an ah ma today. =)

mangled by art.

2006-05-12T18:56:00.000+08:00

after my art exam.. haha.
use of plaster is because of a blister due to overheating of art piece with a very sexy purple lighter.
black ink stains due to 3 hours drowining in paint.
yup.. i'm gonna fail my art.. T.T

the thing about time and realizing you're too late..

2006-05-12T17:08:00.000+08:00

it could have been something.
but nothing could do to change anything.
so just let it go and see where it lands.
its gone for now.. maybe forever.
as the realization seeps into your brain..
does it sting?
i could wish on skinned knees to the sky..
but we both know its only a handfull of fallen stars.
thrown away. discarded by god.
does your heart taste the bitter blood?
do the thoughts gnaw and devour your mind?
when what you dread smacks you in the face..
you know time has out run you.. and guess what.
you're too late.

the dead flies on a windscreen.

2006-04-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

ahahaha.. i love that title.. just ramdomly thought of it.. don't ask why i have an image of squashed flys on a windscreen in my head.. i just do.

anyway, i have come to a deduction.. that all teachers above the age of 40 are EVIL and as UGLY as sin itself.

eg. big bird (the principal of my school who looks like something from sesame street)
the giagantic vice-head who looks like she could kill someone just by stepping on them
the evil office lady.. who looks like someone who would devour your head if you get too close.

one day if i get close enough, i'll provide pictures.. but its so scary that it has never been attempted before.. (que the eerie music.. da da da daaaaaaaaaaa)

okay enough of my crap.
my bf is playing his computer game and isn't talking to me. sob.. so abused.
so wrolonelyyyyyyyyy...
*poof. goes to drag her dear off the com*

AND JUST LIKE THE GRAINS OF SAND IN A HOUR GLASS.
SO ARE THE DAYS OF OUR LIVES.. x)

holidays = sleep. i like sleep.

2006-03-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

zzzzzzzzzzz. i like sleep. sleep is good. i am full of bullshit.

man i love holidays.. i have more time to crap around and waste away precious hours of my life. and spend lots n lots of money (and my bf's) on movies and shopping. =x

and i think that if my whole life is a holiday, i'd be broke, and age real quick. falalala.

- the end of another insight into the mind of a stark raving mad lunatic. falalalalalala.

update. finally.

2006-03-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

geez.. some of my entries look so fucking lame now that i re-read them.. ahaha. yet i continue to embarrass myself on the world-wide net. falala.

o's are coming.. and soon you might find a crazy girl dancing on the street for no apparant reason. and yes that would be me. *dances around like a fucking lunatic*

i swear to god i'm not crazy.
bye.

and i love my chasiewbao. happy 10 mths dear.

what blogs are for.

2005-12-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

blogs were created for these few and simple reasons :

- to completely embaress urself by writing angry or depressed crap on the net for the world to see.

- to display ur lack of correct use of english. including spelling mistakes.

- to curse or swear at people you hate or detest.

- to entertain yourself if you are leading a meaningless life.

and that is why blogging was born.

coldplay - fix you

2005-10-17T20:09:00.000+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you will never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you.

a minute with0ut you.

2005-09-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

well i can't keep myself from thinking 'bout you
it's becasue i love you
and i know that it's true
yeah
calling desperation can't you see it in my eyes
that i want to be with you
till the sun falls from the sky

aQualung- brighter than sunshine. ost alot like love.

2005-09-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

i never understood before
i never knew what love was for
my heart was broke
my head was sore
what a feeling

caught up in ancient history
i didn't believe in destiny
i look up you're standing next to me
what a feeling

what a feeling in my soul
love burns brighter than sunshine
it's brighter than sunshine
let the rain fall i dont care
im yours n sudenly you're mine
suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine

i never saw it happenin
i'd given up and given in i just couldn't take the hurt again
what a feeling

i didn't have the strength to fight
but suddenly it seemed so right
me and you
what a feeling

what a feeling in my soul
love burns brighter than sunshine
it's brighter than sunshine
let the rain fall i dont care
im yours and suddenly you're mine
suddenly you're mine

and it's brighter than the sun
it's brighter the sun
it's brighter than the sun, sunshine

love will remain a mystery
but give me your hand and you will see
ur heart is keeping time with me

what a feeling in my soul
love burns brighter than sunshine
it's brighter than sunshine
let the rain fall i don't care
im yours and suddenl you're mine
suddenly ur mine

i've got a feeling in my soul
love burns brighter than sunshine
it's brighter than sunshine
let the rain fall
i dont care im yours and suddenly you'r mine
suddenly you'r mine
and its brighter than sunshine

Frankie Valli - I Love You Baby (omg ii l0ve this s0ng ! )

2005-08-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

You're just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you

You'd be like heaven to touch

I wanna hold you so much

At long last love has arrived

And I thank God I'm alive

You're just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you

Pardon the way that I stare

There's nothing else to compare

The sight of you leaves me weak

There are no words left to speak

So if you feel like I feel

Please let me know that it's real

You're just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you

I love you baby and if it's quite all right

I need you baby to warm the lonely nights

I love you baby, trust in me when I say

Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down I pray

Oh pretty baby, now that I've found you stay

And let me love you baby, let me love you

smash m0uth - can't get enough of y0u baby.

2005-08-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

I can't get enough of you baby
I can't get enough of you baby
Yes it's true
Oh, baby, yes it's true

Whenever we kiss I get a feelin' like this
I get to wishin' there were two of you
My heart cries out, "More, baby!"
It feels so nice I want your arms to wrap around me twice

I can't get enough of you baby
I can't get enough of you baby
Right or wrong
Oh, baby, right or wrong

When you had to go I hated the thought
I only wish the night was twice as long
My heart cries out, "More, baby!"
I love you so much I
wish that there was more of you to touch

I can't get enough of you baby

- one of the many s0ngs ii sang with grace on the way h0me t0day. overj0yed that we d0n't hav t0 fucking drum anym0re. until tmrw. fuck.-

lifeh0use- y0u and me.

2005-08-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of You and me
and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove
and It's you and me and all of the people
and I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive